Archive for ‘matters of the heart’

April 23, 2015

Friendships are defined by these. #sistersinChrist #bffs


Dear Pam,

We get so caught up with our every day routine and I am so sorry that we don’t get to hang out like before (reminisce back to 2012, 2013).
I just want you to know that you are one of my few treasured friends and I want this friendship to stand the test of time and of space. Every so often I catch myself thinking about you, and Jhwen, and Margie, and Mincy and the times when we were all so happy and giddy and excited to see each other and make kwento. I always get nostalgic. I keep you all in my short prayers, especially you.
Pam, even though you sometimes may feel like it, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I am here for you. In times when I can’t be with you physically, you are in my prayers, in my head, in my heart.
Don’t ever for one second think that you might be bothering me or that I don’t have space for you in my life anymore.
I love you, Pam. I have learned to care for you through these years and I decided to always will. Thank you for the gift of friendship. Thank you for being a true model of faith and of strength that doesn’t come from ourselves but from our God.
Much Love,
Now this is the kind of friendships that I treasure. It’s really lovely to be surprised by little things like this that may not seem much to some but it means a lot to me. I get encouraged, inspired, and most of all, feel appreciated and so loved. I haven’t thought of what to say to her back. I mean, I am not one gifted with fancy and touching words, I just SHOW love cos that’s what I do best.
Father, thank You for friends like Jobelle. Thank You for showing Your love to me through her. I could not have asked for a better friend. She’s Your angel.
April 11, 2015

Tis a new a season. #movingforward #nolookingback


Isaiah 43:18-19 NIV

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.   See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

March 25, 2015

A time to Speak and a time to Hate?


Ecclesiastes 3:1, 7-8 NIV

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:   a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,   a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace


This verse was going through my head as I reflect on what happened today. The confrontation I had to go through with my annoying roommate. It was definitely a time I wanted to speak out and no longer be silent. It was a time I could no longer love but just feel hate. 😥

It was not something I wanted to happen the way it did. I was hoping I was calmer, talked this issue over dinner with food before us. But she robbed me of that choice when she made her own decision without consulting me that she’d rather talk to me over email instead of seeing each other face to face.

Anyway, I feel very bad about how it happened. I’m sorry God for how I behaved, how I reacted and how unpleasant of a person I am. 😦

Lord, You know me better than I know myself. Forgive me Lord, I didn’t intend to harm her, I was just so frustrated that I was being accused, judged and misunderstood. And I know she feels exactly the same way as I do. But how can I help it if we are two complete opposites? How can I deal with someone who can’t accept me for who I am and won’t take NO for an answer?

Father I pray things will get better. I pray that she will not harbor ill feelings and will eventually forgive me too. I pray God that You will lead her and guide her to her calling. And may she grow up and mature mentally and spiritually. Be with her Lord, guide her and remove every deception, lie and confusion that the devil tries to place in her mind and thoughts, and may she find her true identity in You God.

In Jesus’ powerful name I pray, Amen.

January 29, 2015

Happy Birthday Gecko! #tbt #reminisce


This was 11 years ago, back in June 15, 2004 taken around 2:45pm. 吴挺 got his hair shaved here. If I’m not mistaken, this was at the Sunway Pyramid mall in PJ, KL.

This was actually not a very nice memory of us together because we were in a “complicated” status at that point. But I specifically chose this photo for my throwback post because it reminds me of what a good man he is, a very forgiving man specifically.

I am very happy for him now. How he has come to know Christ through his wife and how cute their little baby is. Just wanna take the time to ‘quietly’ honor him since I know it would not be appropriate otherwise.


Here’s a candid shot taken few months after the first photo, on December 19, 2004 about 9:41pm. I don’t recall what we were looking at but man, I look darn ridiculous with that ‘biut‘ mouth. I must be eating something so good it couldn’t wait. LOL. 😝

Happy Birthday Wuts! Hope its a grand 35th birthday! 😉

December 11, 2014

I missed this guy. #reminisce #tbt


Photo taken back in March 12, 2008. More than 6 years ago.

This is my #throwback post. Been thinking about him since yesterday. Thought I’d catch up with him and see if he’s alright. Vibered him, says he’s still in HK, still doing his thing and fully utilizing his gifts and skills.

Haaayy… I hope he’s ok..

November 14, 2014

God will take care.

Performed by- Ted & Sheri Moffett
Written by- Sheri Moffett

(Isaiah 41:10 )

Verse 1:
Late last night, 
I had a lot of things on my mind, 
All of the things that I’ve gone through
and what I’m dealing with right now.

Sometimes it feels like 
more than what I can bear,
so I need You to help me, oh Lord,
’cause I know you can.

Then it occurred to me
You’re with me always,
and it’s clear to me 
and now I can say.

God will take care,
God will take care,
God will take care of me.

Verse 2:
I wonder why life seems so hard,
I stop and ask myself, 
“where is my God”?

Now, you may find what I’m saying
a little hard to believe,
but the hardest times of my life,
was when He carried me.

Then it occurred to me
God is with me always,
and it’s clear to me 
and now I can say.

Be not dismayed, whate’er betide,
beneath His wings of love abide.

He will supply my every need,
that’s how I know He’ll take care of me.

The lyrics to this song, was exactly how I felt last night going to bed. After getting the news from the agent that I didn’t qualify for the Health & Rehabilitation program that the institute has to offer, I was pretty discouraged.

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have never known what to do with my life. Cos I always felt like I was a jack of all trades but master or none. I never feel that there is anything in particular that I am especially skilled or talented or gifted at.

But this song helps me to stay focus, magnify my God and not my problem or my issue. Its never about me anyways, it has always been about God and about what He can do with my life no matter how unimportant or useless I feel about myself.

He’ll take care of me. He’ll handle it. I just have to keep trying, keep seeking and if its His will, it will happen for me.

June 30, 2014

A piece of my past. #onceuponatime #adecadeago #sweet




A candle wax of Az’s and my hand.. 10 years ago in Sunway lagoon.. How time flies..

June 25, 2014

11 years. #catchingup #onceuponatime



Met up with a very close friend from my McDonald’s Endah Parade days, Az. He insists that we have not met for 11 years and not just 10 years. Okay? Okay.

April 11, 2014

Remembering April 11, a year ago. #flashbackfriday


At Balducci the Italian dining restaurant in Serendra BGC. Today and a year ago today.

Taking the road down memory lane. Bittersweet memories made and reminiscing of things that made me who I am today.

I will never forget the day that I was loved. I was cared for, the day that I still mattered and meant the world to someone.

It will be forever in my heart and my memories, no matter how painful it became in the end, it was a memory worth keeping.

Thank you for the love then, it meant a lot to me.. More than you’ll ever know..

April 1, 2014

Lord, HELP!!! #panicmode

My baby Lumix won’t detect my SD Memory Card!! Aaaaaarrrrrggghhhh!! Now I can’t use my camera without overloading the internal memory! 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩


Aside from getting my heart broken and torn to pieces, this is probably my next worse nightmare. Oh today has not been going well! Troubles are aiming at me at every corner!

Early morning I got a text from my lawyer Margy telling me that the court insisted I state my current address location despite my concerns for my safety and security against the people I am suing. And then, since last night I was told I had to move out in a month’s time if I didn’t want to lie about how I am related to the landlord here at my condo. Then my mom came at me and asked me to pay for my over due insurance bill and I have to think about my expenses and bills to pay.

And now this?? Oh why oh why baby Lumix did u have to fail me too?!

Lord, please help me… Please have mercy on me and save me quickly.. I can’t live this life without Your intervention… 😩😩😩🙏🙏🙏😩😩😩