Archive for December, 2012

December 31, 2012

Countdown! 5mins! Watching news on kids injured by fireworks. Tsk!

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December 31, 2012

Spending my new year 2013 with @gelsagalongos & her mom. ^_^

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December 31, 2012

Watching this now just because its New Year’s Eve.

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December 31, 2012

My thoughts on 2012.

Wow, 2013.

Already??

Ok, here goes my personal review of how my 2012 went.

I’m gonna be honest, it wasn’t “da bomb”. I had to face one of the toughest challenges in my whole lifetime up until now. I turned 30, and lost a dear cousin. 2012 couldn’t get any worst for me.

But despite all that, 2012 was the year God brought me back to Him. Back into His plan, His path, and His will for my life. He brought new people in my life, took out some people too. And the fact is, He is my God, He is the creator, He is the Lord of all, and He is ALWAYS in control. My life is never truly mine. It has always belonged to Him, and He has always made a way for things to happen in this life according to His plans.

I woke up this morning, knowing it is New Year’s Eve and of course not as excited as any person should be. I had a dream regarding my best friend and how I was warning her current boyfriend that he better be serious about her and not fool around with her feelings. I don’t know why I had that dream but it was weird in a way. And I can’t seem to find the right words to describe it. Perhaps I missed her, or perhaps I still cared about her.

Last new year was a quiet one for me. I was in Indonesia with my bro and his family and countdown was just at home and I was just on the computer playing games and waiting for time to pass. This year I have some invitations, but I feel so anti social. Like all I feel like doing is to be alone, watch some movies and stay in bed, away from the world and all the noise. Why? I don’t know.

Am trying to find excuses why I feel this way. Cos I feel guilty feeling this way, I should be grateful for so many other things and not whine and sulk about nothing! First excuse would be that I feel sad that I have to start all over again. It’s like you have a piggy bank full of coins, and when the new year comes, all those coins are used and you have to restart with an empty piggy bank.

Life isn’t easy, and without Christ in my life, I think I would’ve killed myself a long time ago. But I thank God for loving me, for giving me life, for His mercy and grace. For the times I almost lost hope and gave up, He intervened.

Nothing happens coincidentally, God always had a plan ahead of time. I have to always remind myself to count my blessings, and NOT TO COMPARE with what others have or do not have. It surely is easier said than done.

Lord I pray You grant me the strength to continue to run the race You have set for me. To always remind me that You have overcome the world and that there is nothing You cannot handle, because You are a mighty God. Help me right now even as I feel sad and unmotivated, let Your peace and joy fill me with Your presence and allow me to put up a brave face, and walk into 2013 with confidence that I will see Your goodness in the coming year. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.