Today, someone demanded a confrontation.
In a way, I really admire how she could be so brave and outspoken about her mind. Yet, at the same time I also think how could she be so naive? To think that life is so simple?
What do you do when the whole world hates you?
Do you drown in sorrow and think what is wrong with yourself, and think what you could do to change yourself.
But at the same time, why the fuck should you do it to please others? Hell, I’m not perfect, and no one is, and I can’t please everyone right? I can’t guarantee that I can change and make people like me and there’s probably milion others who can’t accept what I have changed to become anyway!
Sometimes I wish people would just leave me alone. Why can’t they accept that? Did I do something so despicable to make them hate me?
I guess I could say the same about others too. I can’t accept certain behaviors so I just stay away from them. Then I become the bad guy because I try to avoid them?
The world is round, misunderstandings happens all the time. People can’t read minds so many a times, we just remain in that sea of misunderstanding because we’re comfortable there. We’re afraid of confrontations because we don’t know how to face the awkwardness that follows after.
I am stubborn, I don’t accept everything that people say about me but not because I always think I am right, I just don’t care what they think anyway cos they’re not worth it.
If I keep stressing myself out about what people think of me all the time, I think I would be a really depressed and miserable person. I am depressed enough as it is because I overthink stuff, you know, about life, about being incomplete, about why there is rich and poor, about the tragedies around the world, about being ugly rather than beautiful, about growing older, and the list goes on and on..
But why is it wrong for me to be who I am? Why is it wrong for me to overthink things? I don’t think I killed anyone or did a major crime so why? Why is it a big deal that I am a serious person when it comes to work? Why does it bothers them so much that I don’t ‘lighten up’ with the working environment?
I’m just doing my job, the job that pays for my bills, and keeps me clothed and puts a roof over my head. Even if it means I have to hate my job, I’d still have to work right? I guess I’m sorry I wasn’t born right or privileged to say that if I’m not happy about work I can just quit.
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So what do you do when the whole world hates you?
August 5, 2011 at 4:52 am
Hi,
I’ve been with the same office where you work, and I always read your blog. Anyway, I encounter the same issue, and I used to become affected by these people.At the end of the day, I realized that we are not born to please other people but to please ourselves. So I just continue on what I know is right without pretending to like them if I really don’t like them, after all I came to work and not to waste my time thinking if they like me or not. I admire your writing and I admire you as a person. Although, we never had time to share everything way back when I used to work there, I can sense that deep in your strong personality is a sweet Pam, a true friend and a loving person.
Have a good day!
XOXO
N
August 5, 2011 at 7:27 pm
Hi N, how I wish we did get to know each other better!
Thanks for the encouragement, it give me comfort to know that it really doesn’t matter what others think as long as we’re doing the right thing yea?
XOXO right back at ‘ya !
August 17, 2011 at 9:19 am
Well, things used to be like that last time, the more effort i give out(i guess i expect the same) yet the respond that are not only not quite what i’ve expect but DISAPPOINTING!! Over years, i make myself numb & i keep reminding my self : Cheers to the job that pays my house(and many many other bills). I didn’t bother a sh*t pleasing them or what they gonna tink bout me. Infact, it’s just business nothing personal, in the end of the day, I just wanna get things done. Don’t blame it on me right ? hehehe…u’re just doing fine Pam >:D<
August 26, 2011 at 1:49 am
Thanks Jen!! feeling mucho better now.. hehehehe.. yabah… who cares kan?? Plus, biasa la bah, the right thing isn’t necessary the thing that everyone likes or can accept easily.. sigh..
cheers!!!