Most Wanted Cafe

Had a short but sweet yam cha session at this cafe with my highschool years mate, Kodomo.

Here’s a few stuff I learned from her,

“lassitude” – physical or mental tiredness.

However, in her definition, it means, in mandarin “yan(4th sound) juan(4th sound)” meaning in an informal way saying “nyak“(mandarin slang).

and “nyak” , the informal mandarin language technically means – getting bored of.

Mobile Phones and their owners.

Don’t u just hate it when u call a person on their mobile and they won’t pick it up?

I mean, whats a mobile for if they wont pick it up?? fuck man..

Sometimes I feel like I’m so repulsive! Too dependent on her? Maybe.

I hate this feeling. The “she doesn’t feel the same for u as u do for her” kind of scenario.

DAMNIT!!!

Random: Doesn’t this look FUN?

and the background scenery is just amazing~~ Thank God Sabah still has beautiful places to be proud of!!

The World of Suzie Wong (1960)

I think this is the first ever OLD movie that I actually sat through. I usually just flip the channel when I come across old movies from the 50s or 60s but this movie caught my attention cos it was an American made movie on an Asian culture. I was curious to see how the westerners those days viewed the asians in their times.

Anyway, caught it on cinemax channel 41 while I was browsing through Astro (while babysitting – cos I don’t have astro in my own home ).
So, here’s the scoop on the story,

“An American goes to Hong Kong for a year to work on his painting, meets a Chinese prostitute who poses for him, and then eventually falls in love with her. “

Simple.

Well, I liked the fact that the character was actually an architect by profession. Haha. yalah, thought of Al for a moment there.

One thing that I’ll always remember of this movie, is how the character, Suzie Wong, so ever frequently misuse the world “FOR GOODNESS SAKE”. There were so many lines in that movie which she uses “FOR GOODNESS SAKE” at the end of each line which is really funny. Its almost like her punch line. Hah.

Though I have to say I didn’t like the ending at all.. it was sort of a sad and an ending that just leaves its audience hangin’..

Bah, old movies.. what more can you expect.. it was kinda interesting the kind of insight it gave me on the perspective of chinese prostitutes in those days..

Neways, here’s to my first ever OLD movie review:

I’d give it a 2.5/5 star rating. maybe can be close to 2.8 lah at best. kekekekeke .

“~for goodness sake!~” ;-p

Its a matter of Trust, is it not?

You know how the girlfriend tells the boyfriend how he does certain things that arent right, or maybe certain advices that they give you, the boyfriend just let the words go in from one ear and out the other?

They call the advices, naggings. Well, I think its just a matter of trusting your love ones.
Like, maybe the guy has a bad habit of being egotistical, and his friends are just too chicken to say it to his face. But the girl, knowing that she could confront her man without being judged because they have a certain intimacy, a certain trust in each other, that they both should know, that whatever thats conveyed is for their own good.

However, confrontation turns sour, and the guy becomes defensive of his actions and thinks that the girl is againts him. So a fight emerges.

BUT, if a friend, who can be as blunt and straight-forward, tells it to this guy’s face, that he was being an ass, it is immediately being input into his mind and he goes, “woow, thats the 2nd time. Ok, this time its for real.”

“THIS TIME”? So, when the girlfriend says it, its not for real?
Why must it take 2 opinions to believe in something? Even if the opinion comes from a “someone” that you SHOULD be trusting?? Its your own girlfriend for GOODNESS SAKE.

I guess, the level of trust the guy had for the girlfriend, wasn’t as deep as she thought he had in her.

And, this doesn’t have to imply on just the negative. Even when the girlfriend says “You can do it baby, you can make it, you’re good at you do,”, it doesn’t cheer the guy up. BUT, when he hears the same shit from other people, its like his whole life depended on other’s opinion and his day was brightened up just like that.

So what of the girlfriend’s opinion? It didn’t matter? It wasn’t worth believing in?

So what’s a girlfriend for? Just to be a flower pot I guess, to be appreciated when needed, and to be left alone when there is no need.

Where is the TRUST??

Last Day of Break. BREAK.

yea.. last day of 5 day break.. sheesh.. how time flies..

Break day 1:
Spent whole day in my sister’s hse just watching ANTM cycle 4 marathon while burning cds in my bro’s pc…

Break day 2:
Sunday, church, then back home, lazed around, then movie at night. Watched “The Prestige.” with Ams, Dins, Kims and others. Thereafter had HA-MEN supper at foh sang. I do wanna add on that Prestige was a darn good movie. Haven’t seen a good one in a while now. I’d give it a 4/5. Not perfect, some scenes I found corny but its still good nontheless.

Break day 3:
Monday, morning half of the day, the aircon service crew came by to install a new aircon for my mum’s room (which i’m dreading for the electricity bill next month. lets hope it rains more often!!) and then after they’re done, did some laundry and clean the living room and my room. In the afternoon, went out with my mum to do furniture shopping. And we got us a nice contemporary couch with a solid wood coffee table and a “so-so” kitchen cabinet. In the evening, had a bday dinner to go to at Al’s aunty’s hse. Free Food! yummy..

Break day 4:
Woke up rather late, and then after brunch head straight on to wash the car. Took up the rest of my afternoon just to chill at home and rest. By 4pm, Dins picked me up to his place to babysit Hannah. So the rest of the night was work for me eventhough its still a public holiday and supposedly my rest day.. well, what a pauper’s gotta do, she’s gotta do it.. even if its only worth 30 malaysian ringgit.

And finally today, Break day 5. Doesn’t the days go by just too fast when you’re having fun?

Sigh…

Don’t we just LOVE-ATHE them?? families…..

–sms msg log–

from Che2 to papams:

“2day I realise tht Mummy makg dinner 4 us is too much trouble 4 U n Mummy.”

(in papam’s thoughts, yea, it sure is!! Its about time you realised that!!!)

papams to Che2:

“There’s a way around it. Its up to you to accept it. If its really the matter of the girls eating their dinner early. Mum could pick them up and have dinner in luyang hse first.”

(see, i gave her an option)

from Che2 to Mum & papams:

“Ma, klu makg dinner 4 me is very susah 4 U & Pam, mayb no need 2 do dinner 4 me oredi lah.”

(papams says, note the “dinner 4 ME” as in its for herself and not for the kids.. and she says its for the kids!! blueks!!!!)

Che2 continues…

“I don want 2 b a burden 2 U & Mummy anymre.”

papam finally replies after putting a loooooong thought and after ranting to besfren about the matter,

“Bah, Thanks che..”

Che2 then replies to that,

“U r not nice. Chinese say ppl like U got black heart.”

(notice that this sounds like a whining baby who couldn’t think of any other comeback)

and then papams seeing that che2 had eaten her own words, replied again,

“eh, I thought u said u didnt want to burden us? I appreciated that.. So you’re saying you don’t mean it??”

Well, at this point, I was already pist. I can’t believe she dared to say a thing like that. She didn’t even see the bigger picture. I had to scream.. and I did.

And Che2 didnt bother to reply, I felt the need to dump the shit into her face. So I went on to reply her one of the most longest sms I could send to a person.

linked1/6:
“I oredi say kan got another way. U being childish wan 2 merajuk padahal got another way around it. U saja senang2 no need 2 masak padahal org lain yg hav

linked2/6:
“2 go kerja lagi 2 support their living hav 2 wait for u saja n sacrifice their rest? Mum is doing u a favor. All i’m askin is dat u consider i got work

linked3/6:
“2 go 2 at 7 whic is y i wan 2 get home early so can rest. U oredi tdk payah masak, cannot ka compromise n try other alternatives?? Bukan pun org cakap td

linked4/6:
“k mau tolong! If ppl minta tolong frm u pun they will try 2 find more convenient way ma. I ask u to kasi balik baju pun when its on ur way 2 work ma. Ada

linked5/6:
“kah u wan 2 merajuk like dat tdk fikir dulu situation?! Bagus klu i rush u guys just so i could go jln! Org pi kerja cari duit ba dat! U got husband 2 su

linked6/6:
“pport lagi. I got no husband n need 2 support mummy lagi! Ya che, i got a black heart. God bless u.”

And there, I could’ve added more.. but i think, thats all the energy I could afford to waste on being mad. I need more reserves for doing 2 jobs and uni and being sick with flu n fever at the same time.

So fuck yea. I got a black heart.

Life Goes On..

I emailed an “affair” of mine, happened a long time ago.. not that I’m proud to admit it but hey, its part of my history, and its part of my life experience.. It has mold me to become who I am today..

He replied my mail, and sent me a photo of his baby boy.. so cute.. And the name,.. Daniel.. kinda awkward for him to choose a Christian name.

Anyhow… its nice to keep in touch. And yea.. even after all those months we’ve been through.. life goes on.. we’ve gone over the ‘expiry date’

Life sure does go on..

07 October 2006: Random Thoughts.

PROCRASTINATION

This word is really a big hit in my books currently.

06 October 2006: Looking at the same moon.

I just got back from tuition. And after a whole day of facing the computer screen at work, I get home to this, the computer screen. Am such and Internet addict!!!

Anyway, tuition ended early cos there was a power cut and the girl had “Lantern” plans.. So I packed my stuffs and left. As I was about to head out to my car, I saw the moon. Imagine the whole housing area had a power failure, yet it was sooooo darn bright!!! Yeap!! Its the mooncake festival alright!!!!

Full moon maaan~~~ So bright lagi tu!!!!!

For as long as I could remember, I’ve always been facinated by a full and bright Moon. The view is just amazing…

And of course, who do I share this special moment with? My special someone..

Called him up, and I said, “I wondered if we’re looking at the same moon?”

And we were!!!

It was bright over there too.. eventhough we were in a 2-hour difference time zone.. we were looking at the same moon..

now isnt that just amazing…~~